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Under the Influence of Lust and Porn

Via TJC

“14; but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. 15; Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.” -James 1:14-15

“Hey Brother, I lost my battle again today. I was at the gym and saw this goddess! She was all that and a bag of chips. I tried to ignore her the whole time in the gym, but she was always next to me. I was three weeks sober. I went home and as my wife was cooking went into the throne room and found the perfect match on my favorite website. I went to town and released all my desires. I felt like crap afterwards though. I prayed for forgiveness. But how many more times will this happen? I will be alright though I do not need help. I lasted three weeks, I know I can be strong. Thanks anyways.”

How many of us have been through this scenario before? I know I have many times. I believed that I could handle the situation all by myself because of the fear of others finding out my dirty little secret. I didn’t need someone prying into my life and seeing everything that I did on a daily basis. I didn’t want my wife to know that I was still watching porn at the time. Was I an addict?

I don’t know, but I know I’m selfish and after my own desires for that split moment in time. Desires have destroyed many things in men’s lives. We tell ourselves that it’s just the man in us. That we have desires that have to be met also. Just looking at a woman will not hurt us. Admiring God’s sculpture is not a crime. But wait, the above passage says otherwise. 15; after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin. This statement says it all. We give birth to sin and the enemy will use that to their advantage. Even the strongest man can be tempted and it is up to him whether or not he fails the test or passes it letting God direct his thoughts not his own desires.

I have watched porn many times in my lifetime and have won and lost the battle. I used to cave in easily until I asked God for help and He sent my Mentor. I was ashamed but relieved to know that it is finally out there. That I freed myself of the burden I was holding onto. The temptation has never left. I am tested each day and each day I am growing stronger in my battle. I have found ways to place God in my thoughts when the triggers arise. I do not avoid it, I go at it head on. When you avoid it then the noise becomes louder and you will give in eventually.

Two weeks ago, a guy in my group shared something that rocked my world. He shared something he never thought he would. He stated that he wanted us to pray for his daughter because she is a huge porn star. He wants her to give it up and seek Christ. He blamed himself but also stated that he cannot fathom looking at porn because what if one day he happens to click and there she was right in his face. Man did that rock my world. To think that I could be looking at my brother in Christ’s daughter while I was trying to get one off. I could not forgive myself for that. That puts a new perspective on what I was doing and sometimes still do.

I ask for prayer because this battle still continues. I give my story and share because I am not afraid. I want to help rescue another brother that needs rescuing. Let us free ourselves of worry and care more about what God wants us to be in his image. Don’t fool yourself into thinking you can do this alone. YOU CAN’T!!!

Prayer:

Dear Heavenly Father, I ask that you forgive me for all sins and transgressions. I ask that this touches many men who are still facing this challenge every day. Let them know they are not alone and that they can be saved from this bondage. I ask that you guide each one of them to the right person to give them hope and know you are there no matter what challenges they are going through. That one moment was not worth losing themselves for. That you want purity at its fullest not half. I pray that each person reading this knows that they are not alone in this battle. I love each and every one of you men no matter your faults. In Jesus name…AMEN

 

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